It’s A Social Human’s World…

I, quite frankly, just live in it.

I think my somewhat standoffish personality gets me labeled a bitch.

Yep, that’s me.  Biggest bitch in the room.  I’m sorry you never got to know me well enough to know that I’m not actually a giant cuntasaurus-rex, and I’m sorry you think I am a twattlosiraptor.

Actually, no, no I’m not.  Because you’ve never really bothered to get to know me, and passive-aggressive eye rolls in my presence are absolutely noticed.  Also, I can tell by walking into a room what every single person feels towards me, I’m not fucking retarded, and because I have that latent empathy for your apathy, I feel unwanted in your presence, so when, and I do say when, I probably decide to no longer bask in the glory of your impressively aggressive presence, your comments at my expense are not necessary, though I know they will happen, because I’ve seen you do it at other’s expense.  I’m glad I’m an object of humor to you.  As always, I aim to please.

It happens to me a lot.  I get close to people, feel the slow dip into their ever growing frustration with my lack of wanting to be constantly engaged in overly social activity, they get pissed off and passive aggressive towards me, and I simply back off and disappear, because I don’t deserve to be treated that way.  I don’t feel the need to explain myself or my behavior, because when it happens, it’s because those people never cared enough about me as a person, as a friend, as a loved one to let me in, and let me let them in, or when I tried to explain my lack of comfort in constant social engagement, it was disregarded as stupid or unimportant to those people.

Well, guess what, if a very important part of my personality rubs you the wrong way, then we were never going to actually get along in the first place, and you don’t deserve the vast benefits that having me in your corner affords.

But hey, you have your dignity, and I have mine, I’ll keep to my shadows and solitary existence.  Those that deserve my doting and love will continue to reap my fields of kindness, and you can just keep your snide, hurtful remarks at my expense, because that’s what helps you silly humans sleep at night.

Until next time…

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